Random Entry #1

I feel overwhelmed and... I don't know- excited? Joyful? Loved? Somehow parang mixture ng mga words na yan, pero there is somehow like a very good, satisfying and soothing feeling.

Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na kapag may na-rerealize ka that God is trying to make you understand, lalo na kapag nag-humble ka before Him.

Ano ba yung na-realize o naintindihan ko na pinapasabi Niya sa akin?

Na lahat ng nadadaanan ko is for such a great purpose.

Purpose. Na kaya ko nadadanasan ang mga bagay ngayon ay dahil

Inaayos

Linilinis

Tinatama

Hinuhumble

Hinahanda

Shineshape

at kino-conform to be like Christ

to follow on the example of Jesus.

And yes, parang katulad lang din ng kay Joseph the dreamer. His struggle and victory were not a one-time happening—madaming challenges at kaakibat noon ay victories in the end.

What God made me understand pa is about His vision for me. Ano ba yung vision na pinakita Niya sa'yo? Ano ba yung vision or promise na inilatag Niya bago ko naranasan ang mga events that look like hindi ako papunta sa vision or promise Niya? Like Nehemiah, madami man ang nag discourage, insulto o nag-try talaga sumalakay para pigilan yung binigay na vision sa Kaniya ni Lord; but what did he do? He still continued. The people na kasama sa paggawa; habang nag buibuild, ang isang kamay ay gumagawa habang ang isa ay may hawak na sandata. Ready anytime na may pagsalakay.

And I realized I am inside of the wilderness. I am inside of the building up. I am inside and on the path of God's transformation to be like Christ and on the way to His vision.

Sabi nga, huwag gagaya doon sa ten spies. Instead, have the perspective katulad ng remaining two spies- Joshua and Caleb. It is about focusing on God's vision rather than the present sufferings. Pansamantala lang iyon, ika nga- but the vision and promise is forever. The eternal glory and gain we will have in Jesus is far greater than the sorrow, chaos and sufferings we are experiencing now.

Praise God. Thank You, Jesus.