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Narcissistic; Base sa mayoclinic.org

one of several types of personality disorders — is a mental condition in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for excessive attention and admiration, troubled relationships, and a lack of empathy for others.

I've been called self-centered and narcissistic. I often check myself kung ganoon nga talaga ako, but it just frustrates me. Saang banda?

Madaming pinagdaanan ang family namin and it came to the point na parang ramdam ko, mag-isa nalang ako. Because of the history of our family, I held unto God more and trusted His promise na He has a plan and a future. Ayaw kong mapatulad yung magiging pamilya ko, especially the family of my siblings, sa dinadanas namin ngayon. Kaya madalas pinapaalalahanan ko sila. Wala kasi silang fatherly figure sa bahay.

It concerns me if nakikita kong papunta sa maling daan yung mga kapatid ko. It is either dahil pinagdaanan ko iyon or madaming nag-oopen up sa akin before with the same na same na same na case with them.

But it has gotten worse,

They see me as the bad person

They see me as the kontra bida

They see me as someone na nagpapaka-self righteous, but the truth is

I was only concern. I care for them.

I tried so many ways to remind

But I do not know if they consider the words that I shared with them, in which the Lord has spoken to me for them.

Kung pwede nga lang hindi makaramdam if nakikita ko silang mapapahamak

Kung pwede nga lang hindi masaktan Kung pwede nga lang balewala nalang para sa akin

Kung narcissistic ako, bakit nagkakaganito ako? Bakit ang sakit sakit at bigat para sa akin?

Bakit naaapektuhan ang trabaho ko? Bakit nakakaramdam ako ng sorrow? Bakit nakakaramdam ako ng discouragement?

Bakit ako naiiyak?

Bakit ako nabibigatan?

Kung narcissistic, self-centerd, selfish at sarili ko ang inisiip ko- bakit ganoon nalamang ang concern, effect at pain in my heart when I know they are in a critical and serious state?

Napapa-isip ako

Narcissistic; lack of empathy for others.

Hindi kaya yung sarili ng nagsalita ang dinedescribe niya?

Alam siguro nila na may pagkakamali sila and they try to put all the blame on me

When the truth is, gusto kong mapabuti ang buhay nila

If I am those words,

Panigurado I will just thrive in my own career

I will travel around the world and enjoy things on my own

I will live far away from them

Hindi ko na sila papakielaman

Hindi ko na sila papaalalahanan

Hindi ko sila tutulungan

Wala. Wala lang. Wala na sila para sa akin.

And definitely, hindi ko sila masiyadong iisipin.

Is someone so affected of someone's well-being a narcissist?

Kung pwede nga lang... Kung pwede nga lang hindi masaktan o makaramdam.